Ah 傑 here.

This is something I’ve wondered about endlessly. Is everyone in this an either/or situation? Or are there people who are clearly in the middle, or seemingly a complete mish-mash of things?

The left brain is about logic and understanding and facts and hard numbers kinda thing, where as the right brain is more creative and emotional and spontaneous. 

But… where exactly would I stand? I am at a loss. I don’t know what to really think right now…

For those who know me, I think it is very apparent that I am more or less a left-side-of-brain kind of person. Although, for those who know me REALLY well, will also probably notice that the right-side has a very heavy influence on my life.

Sure, I like to look at things from a logical viewpoint, see through other people’s eyes, try to understand the reasoning behind everyone’s ideas. Hard facts and numbers are my friends. You can’t argue against them. They provide you with the ability to maximize efficiency and effectiveness. 

However, it would be absurd to say that I am not a creative person. It would be absurd to say that emotions do not lead me through my thought processes. It would be absurd to say that I am not spontaneous. All of this is apparent if you know me really well.

When I was a child, my favourite activity was drawing. Oh drawing, how you’ve gotten me through the boring “quiet time” hours at home. Making things with lego (it can be argued that lego is a very “structured” form of creativity, but that’s not the point, it still allows for a strong use of one’s imagination, boosting creativity in the individual) like entire cities, and integrating the many factions and time lines that lego has introduced over the years. In my recent past, many decisions made, although I may claim to be very logical, were in fact done through my emotions. The only logic used was afterwards when trying to rationalize my decisions. And spontaneous actions… this I am a big fan of. When something is mentioned that I just really wanna do, I will very much just want to just do it. Of course, this being me, unless the idea is very straightforward and simple, a little thought does go into the process, and I think about whether or not it’s a good idea.

More or less, I think I am a left-hemisphere brain kinda guy. I DO love numbers, I DO love logic, I DO love organization. However, what intrigues me is the fact that I am very VERY interested in the right-hemisphere. I yearn to be more creative. I have a little JY inside of me that wants to be let out on occasion and run rampant and draw, and paint, and just lie down and daydream. All aspects of the right-hemisphere are present within me, and sometimes I think I’m just restraining them, keeping them deep inside, because my mind says it’s the logical thing to do.

Maybe I am the balance of the two? This seems unlikely, as this “balance” would be the visual equivalent of an elephant and a cat trying to ride a see-saw together. I am definitely heavy on the logical side of things… 

Sometimes I feel like I’m Data from ST:TNG. Logical, understand, and organized, but with a desire to be more creative and “human”. I know it’s in me, my childhood has told me so.

Is it possible to be both? More importantly, does it seem like it’s possible for ME to be both? In all aspects of my life?